Like a taut bundle of wire through my being,
my soul,
the alignment centers...grounds...elevates.
From my niche in the center of Earth,
my cord soars to the heart
of beautifully obstructive satellite.
Veiling Light, Moon accelerates unnoticed life.
My pillar perforates until it again finds Light,
flows toward the nucleus of Sun
and beyond - to the center of center.
Beginning connects present connects end.
Masculine is feminine
and feminine is masculine.
Ancient DNA frightened and enlightened.
Coronal fringes wisp and flutter,
midday twilight and encircling sunset
the only reminders.
Time stops -- no -- time disappears as Sun.
Time doesn't exist.
Time is still -
until the diamond explodes with delightful disappointment
and propulsion to blinding so-called reality.
The infinite two minutes and twenty two seconds again finite.
Energetic bundle still taut but vibrating with higher frequency.
Hastening healing,
Expediting enlightenment,
Intensifying intuition,
Accelerating awareness,
Enhancing empathy,
Flying fearlessly forward.
One Year Ago Today...
One year ago today...
I started getting a "cold"...
Which turned into a "sinus infection"...
Mono the whole time
I'd only had my blood drawn twice in 20 years
I had never regularly broken out in hives
My heart arrhythmia was as common as a Venus transit
All tea tasted like hay
The "Mono Lessons" began to occur but were not yet being documented
"Tired" had a completely different meaning
I had a great job
I had the most incredible coworkers
I was taking my first business trip
We were as strong as ever
We were beginning to truly bond
The end was at least 2 years away
...not 6 months
Life wasn't as hemorrhoidy and didn't sting
Life wasn't as bloated
Life wasn't as constipated
But it was a bit...irregular
I ate whatever the hell I wanted
I weighed 170 lbs
I wasn't as experienced
I wasn't as empathetic
I wasn't as forgiving
Lisa hadn't yet changed my life
I wasn't as patient
I wasn't as friendly
I wasn't as mindful
I didn't know I'd be so happy to have the last year behind me
...one year ago today.
Mono Lessons (Part V: 83-99)
You'll laugh, you'll cry, you'll thank God you don't have mono.
83. Power Rangers rocked and still do and still will.
84. I’m not a twink. Only twinkish.
85. The ugly truth about gaydar.
86. How much I enjoyed researching and writing my paper on gaydar.
87. I wasn’t taught proper sex education in public school.
88. HIV/AIDS discussions now get me riled up.
89. Certain artists are more talented than I can comprehend.
90. I still adore hot redheads… It’s a curse.
91. Gender & Sexual Orientation (GNDR 5770) is the best class I’ve ever taken. Ever. I mean it. Thanks Lisa!!!
92. I really just don’t like Kenny Chesney.
93. Miranda Lambert’s voice is annoying. Especially her talking voice.
94. The exact same things stars go through in the public eye happen to our friends too.
95. There is an endless list of things I could have done differently if I would have known I had mono sooner.
96. Sometimes that endless list starts to repeat itself in my head.
97. It’s not worth listing everything I could have done differently. I only have NOW.
98. Nothing beats good customer service.
99. Unreliable cars make driving so much more stressful than it used to be…than it should be.
Mono Lessons (Part I: 1-24)
And so begins the posting of my "Mono Lessons." As I mentioned earlier, I have a whole gigantic list of these written, so I will post them in smaller spurts.
I believe a lot of people who will be reading these are either specifically mentioned or alluded to in my "lessons." This could get rather interesting.
You'll laugh, you'll cry, you'll thank God you don't have mono.
1. It is difficult to stay healthy long enough to qualify for a flu vaccination.
2. It is so much more convenient and comfortable to breathe out of your nose. Hence, it is very likely to become addicted (literally) to nasal spray.
3. Your true friends are the ones who stick around knowing you haven’t been yourself for months on end.
4. Antibiotics for “sinus infections” will cause hives when you have mono. I guess it didn’t help that I also didn’t actually have a sinus infection in the first place.
5. Hives will get out of control if you don’t take an antihistamine and/or put Cortizone 10 on them as soon as you feel an outbreak occurring.
6. I’m allergic to Bactrim and Ceftin.
7. Mono will slow down room rearrangement projects…greatly.
8. Getting your blood drawn can actually be a non-horrific experience.
9. Being “too tired” is apparently only legitimate if you have a blood test to back it up.
10. Endless amounts of jokes can be made about mono all because someone decided to call it the “kissing disease.” Only thing is, it’s endless amounts of the SAME joke.
11. It is unbelievably hard for me to ask for less responsibility.
12. I hadn’t realized how emotionally invested I am/was in the UTemps Program. I had never bawled over taking time off before. It was devastating.
13. Bowling IS a sport.
14. I could actually be skinnier than I was.
15. What true nausea is.
16. Empathy for:
a. Mom
b. Dad
c. Sherri
d. Kelsey
e. Deanna
17. What fatigue is.
18. How much a pleasant memory is worth.
19. Boys can wait.
20. Most things can wait.
21. I can wait.
22. People can change. And those changed people will continue to surprise you.
23. Shattered friendships can begin to heal.
24. Some friendships need to end…or at least take a break.