Andrew Legend

Anyone who knew anything about my family and me prior to February 12, 2017 knows about our Acura Legend, whom I named Andrew 'Andy' Legend.

Andy is a 1991 Acura Legend. He's rosewood colored - not beige, not silver, not gray - rosewood. My parents purchased him in October of 1991 and he is practically my little brother.

Over the course of Andy's lifetime, nearly everything broke. The list of things that didn't break is shorter, so I shall list them:

  1. Engine
  2. Transmission

See how short that was?

To give you an idea of what I mean, here are a few of the stranger things that broke on/in Andy:

  • Gas Gauge - this broke before I even started driving him in 2005
  • Every power window, all four
  • Passenger side inside door handle (I'm still sorry to all those who cut their finger on it)
  • These little plastic panels behind the inside door handles...? I don't even know...
  • Wiper fluid shooters
  • Power antenna
    (This eventually got stuck in the 'up' position and broke off entirely in a car wash.)
  • Driver side key hole
    (Andy made me be a gentleman to everyone who rode with me.)
  • The bumper. I don't even know how many times that thing came off...but it was at least 5 times with me driving it and 2 of those times it was entirely replaced.
  • Anti-Lock Break System (ABS)
  • Only a couple of weeks before he left us, I got in one morning, adjusted my rear-view mirror, and it popped off right into my hand with part of the windshield attached to it. It literally came off with a chunk of glass. That was probably the last straw.
  • My personal favorite: the Speedometer, hence the odometer, both the trip odometer and the main odometer.

How many miles did Andy have on him? I have no clue any more. Once the speedometer started to quit working properly, the miles were no longer being logged properly either. On February 11, 2017 at 12:56, 214,060.0 miles were logged. My best terrible guess is that he had closer to 300,000 miles actually driven.

Final drive photos at Suncrest

 

Andy was even a model for me when I was taking a digital photography class. This was part of a "creative flash" assignment. Man, he looks good!

 

Back when the little guy rolled past 150,000 miles. So cute!

 

Me driving during one of many road trips.

 

Our final drive.

 

For our final drive, after more than a decade together, I took Andy down the roads we used to drive when I lived on Set Point Circle. We went up to Suncrest and took those photos.
On my way up there with him, I cried. I cried and cried.
On the way back, we drove on Wasatch Blvd - the exact stretches of road where I learned to drive with Andy. I cried and cried.
When I returned home, I told my mother about my drive and we cried and cried.

The memories made with Andy are not gone. I'll always remember the long talks with friends, even coming out to friends, my first kiss, the awe-inspiring road trips and meeting Missy Higgins, the head-clearing drives singing at the top of my lungs... Every dent, every ding, every scratch, and every crack has a memory that is still with me.

Andy, I love you. We will always share this view.

For a brief moment, the clouds cleared and reminded me that I knew this view even when I couldn't see it.

"Any Day Now" by Missy Higgins

Here, Missy performs one of my very favorite songs of hers called "Any Day Now" at the Aquashell in Darling Harbour, Sydney, Australia.  Lyrics provided below.

"Any Day Now" - Missy Higgins

How long, how long, how long will we take to come undone?
If you know the answer tell me now and I'll write up a calendar for our count down.
'Cos what if what we see is all, is all we've got?

Say you've kept some fire aside to set light to me some surprising night. 
And say you've locked some fire away to set light to me some surprising day. 
Any day now...

How come, how come, how come I'm now on a road holding out my thumb? 
If you know my destination please buy me the fastest car and throw me the keys. 
'Cos what if what we see is all, is all we've got?

Say you've kept some fire aside to set light to me some surprising night. 
And say you've locked some fire away to set light to me some surprising day. 

'Cos finger by finger we're losing grasp and
I'm questioning the reasons why nothing beautiful does last...

Say you've kept some fire aside to set light to me some surprising night. 
And say you've locked some fire away to set light to me some surprising day, 
To me some surprising day...

Any day now...

"Nightminds" by Missy Higgins

"Nightminds" is my first Missy Higgins experience.  2.5 - 3 years ago, one of my best friends told me to look this song up.  As you guessed or already know, I got hooked.  

Since then, I've followed Missy's musical life, seen her twice in concert, taken a road trip (with said best friend) to see her, met her, and got her autograph.  So I guess this song means even more to me now because, without it, I wouldn't have had some of the most amazing experiences of my life and I would have missed out on some outstanding singer-songwriter lyrics, chords, and vocals.  

Thanks, friend.  This post is for you and our nightminds.  :-)

"Nightminds" - Missy Higgins

Just lay it all down.
Put your face into my neck and let it fall out. 
I know, I know, I know.
I knew before you got home. 
This world you're in now, 
It doesn't have to be alone, 
I'll get there somehow, 'cos
I know, I know, I know,
When even springtime feels cold. 

But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see, 
So we can both be there and we can both share the dark. 
And in our honesty, together we will rise, 
Out of our nightminds, and into the light
At the end of the fight.

You were blessed by a different kind of inner view: it's all magnified. 
The highs would make you fly, but the lows make you want to die. 
And I was once there, hanging from that very ledge where you are standing. 
So I know, I know, I know, 
That it's easier to let go. 

But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see, 
So we can both be there and we can both share the dark.
And in our honesty, together we will rise out of our nightminds
And into the light at the end of the fight. 

And in our honesty, together we will rise out of our nightminds
And into the light at the end of the fight.

"Steer" by Missy Higgins

On my list of favorite songs, this is number two: "Steer". Here, Missy Higgins recalls the moment she was inspired to create this remarkable and inspirational song. Lyrics are provided below.

"Steer" - Missy Higgins

Feel it falling off like clothing
Taste it rolling on your tongue
See the lights above you glowing
Oh and breathe them deep into your lungs

It was always simple, not hidden hard
You've been pulling at the strings playing puppeteer for kings
And you've had enough

But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
And your heart is fierce
So now you finally know that you control where you go
You can steer

So hold this feeling like a newborn
Of freedom surging through your veins
You have opened up a new door
So bring on the wind, fire, and rain

It was always simple, not hidden hard
You've been played at a game called remembering your name
And you stuffed it up

But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
And your heart is fierce
So now you finally know that you control where you go
You can steer
Ohh, yeah now you finally know that you control where you go
You can steer

'Cos you've been listening for answers
Oh, but the city screams and all your dreams go unheard

But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
And your heart is fierce
So now you finally know that you control where you go
You can steer
Ohh, yeah, get out of the box and step into the clear
Ohh, 'cos now you finally know you can steer


How intimidating and liberating it is to come to this realization. To understand that you have the steering wheel for your life in your own hands is a remarkable moment. You should see her perform this LIVE! Ah! I highly recommend her album On a Clear Night.

May 24, 2008 @ 00:11, Aspen, CO, USA

May 24, 2008 @ 00:11, Aspen, CO, USA

21 Years Worth of Gluten

I'm 21 today.

            What does that mean?

Renewing driver license.
A new driver license picture.
One year closer to getting own insurance.
Andrew Legend is 19 and somehow still running...for now.
No cake or pie. They all have gluten and/or dairy in them.
21+ concert venues and no missing Missy, Pat, or LeAnn any more.
5 leap-days have made my birthday feel one day late.
Only one other person exists with this same birthday.
(Happy birthday to her!)
Checking in to any hotel.
21 years worth of gluten.
Gambling tuition money away.
One year closer to renting a car.
Most of that 21st year was spent ill.
Could have been legally smoking for 2 years.
Could have been getting back from my mission soon. Ha.
Now an adult. Whatever the hell that means.
2.5 years left of undergraduateness.
March 1st has yet again snuck up on us all.
February is still shorter than all the other months.
Escaped from high school 3 years ago.
"Jase" was renounced 13 years ago.
All that is wanted...needed...is birthday cash.
Regular multivitamin and supplement schedule.
Legal porn viewing in all 50 states.
No longer in the limbo of 20.
13 years of being LeAnn's #1 fan.
5 LeAnn Rimes concerts...ready for 50 more.
6 down, 1 to go.  Alanis...come on.  I'm waiting.
"Out" (whatever that means) for 3 years and 3 months.  Wow.
Lucky number 7's chance has officially arrived.
A consistent pattern of facial hair can be kept.
I get to read my seminary letters.
Adult, horizontally oriented driver license.

Oh yeah...

    And I guess I can now legally drink, huh?

Fun.